I have spent the majority of my life in the meeting rooms of Alcoholics Anonymous. Since I was first sent to rehab at 17, Twelve Step programs have been a backdrop of my life. In 1999, at the age of 22, I put down alcohol and drugs for good. When I was in the early …
The Gap
There is a space between an event that occurs and how we interpret the event. This gap is imperceptible for people that are living unconsciously. You know the type: they go stumbling around their lives, bumping up against things unwanted, and react to everything. They take everything personally, internalizing everything in their outer world. It's …
“Even though” and “Still”: A Path to Unconditional Love
All types of love share common themes, whether it is romantic love, familial love, or love between friends. One of the biggest themes is expectation. Where there is love, there is expectation due to the roles people take on when the label of love is applied. However, expectation is the opposite of love. Expectation binds, …
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I Don’t Know
Have you ever noticed, really noticed, how identified you are with your thoughts? Maybe you don’t even know what that means. It means there is nothing between you and your thoughts. You are your thoughts. Most of us live this way, not knowing there is an alternative. We think a thought, and totally believe it. …
Pick Your Brain
Have you ever noticed how you can react to the same situation in different ways, depending on the day? It is most easily apparent in your close relationships. One day, the way your husband loads the dishwasher annoys you so much you go behind him and re-load it; the next, you don't give it a …
A 3-Step Method To Work With Distractions During Meditation
Early one morning, I sat in meditation in my villa in Bali. The lotus pond in my yard mirrored the sky tinged with pink from the sunrise. Wisps of cloud crowned a distant volcano on the horizon. The palm trees and emerald grass of the rice fields surrounding me were still. I felt bliss and …
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Indian Feast
I'm sipping papaya juice at a Nepalese restaurant while watching a cricket match on TV. The muzak version of Yesterday that's playing is being drowned out by the road noise of hulking diesel trucks painted circus colors. Motorbikes weave around them, blaring their horns to announce their presence. The occasional tuk-tuk chugs by, spewing noxious …
Then / Now
Then My eyelids are heavy and they don’t want to open. Yet the stark light is insistent, telling me that it’s late. I turn away from the window onto my right side. My left temple’s throbbing intensifies, an unwelcome reminder of last night’s overindulgence. My whole body feels like it’s encased in lead. I want …
A path to self-love through meditation
Working with myself, over and over again, surrendering and opening, reveals a path within to the center of the heart space where my soul resides. I show up to my meditation space, a commitment to myself, another act of self love. When I choose to get up, and sit up, and show up, I am …
Are you stagnating in your recovery?
Welcome to my blog! Below you will find my intro video where I explain why I am called to share this message of hope and encouragement for those in recovery who have found themselves depressed, dry and not sober, and possibly consumed with other addictions. Please like, comment, and subscribe to my YouTube channel and …
