Transform Yourself
I have short hair. It’s by default. Because it’s thin, fine, and wispy and grows at a snail's pace I have yearned for long hair since I was 11 years old and ogled my classmate Kathleen's long thick locks. I imagined myself wearing a wig - it was the only way I could see myself …
I changed my hair for you. I started growing it out, and I quit dying it funky colors 👩🎤 because you didn't like it short and pink. I got a manicure topped off with gold gel nail polish💅 to be more feminine, to try and please you. I quit ordering ethnic food because you said …
My hair is short. I don’t shampoo it. I don’t always wear a bra. I usually keep my nails cut short. I like wearing black eyeliner. I will spend a lot of money on good shoes and jackets. I get Botox sometimes. I’ve thought about getting some form of plastic surgery but haven’t. I don’t …
Even though I’m older now. Almost 46. I’m still beautiful- Even if I don’t get the same external validation I did in my youth. I’m still beautiful- Even as my skin suit wrinkles, sags, and folds. I’m still beautiful- And I get to learn that if I want to hear it, I get to tell …
For Valentine’s, I blocked him 🚫 And in doing so, I chose myself👩❤️👩 I blocked him- not out of spite or malice- but out of protection of my own heart💓 Because by continuing a toxic connection, I was in essence blocking myself. Every time I compromised, every time I allowed, made a concession, justified or …
My heart hurts. 💔 It’s an agonizing feeling that is so familiar, yet still so uncomfortable. It comes from loss of connection with another person- usually romantic, but also friendship, or loss through death. This feeling has followed me from youth. When I was 11 years old, my family moved from Texas to South Carolina, …
6 months ago I met a guy from Tinder who gave me some back-handed compliments about my looks and my age. (See Tinder Part 1 here - https://nataliemspeakman.com/2021/07/29/tinder-date/) As a result, I made a declaration to embrace myself as a 44-year-old woman. I shared an authentic-not-airbrushed selfie. (See above.) I got a lot of wonderful …
Continue reading "TINDER DATE Part 2 – The rest of the story"
Last night I went on a Tinder date with someone a lot younger than me. He said the following things:"I bet you were pretty 20 years ago." "You look good, for your age." "You look the same now, except for the wrinkles" - when I showed him a photo of me 20 years ago. Ouch …
Natalie Speakman 