HAIR-STORY

I have short hair. It’s by default. Because it’s thin, fine, and wispy and grows at a snail's pace I have yearned for long hair since I was 11 years old and ogled my classmate Kathleen's long thick locks. I imagined myself wearing a wig - it was the only way I could see myself …

Goodbye

I changed my hair for you. I started growing it out, and I quit dying it funky colors 👩‍🎤 because you didn't like it short and pink. I got a manicure topped off with gold gel nail polish💅 to be more feminine, to try and please you. I quit ordering ethnic food because you said …

MY REBIRTH DAY

I want to share something about myself you may or may not know: I am a recovered alcoholic and drug addict. And I have 2 sobriety dates. Why? February 1, 1999, is the day I came back to AA and I have been clean and sober since then. I have not recreationally used alcohol, marijuana, …

HITTING ROCK BOTTOM

I got pregnant on New Years Eve, 1998. I was drunk.I still remember cheering NINETEEN NINETY-NINE like a madwoman outside the bar as fireworks went off at midnight.My full bladder didn't like all the jumping and screaming, so I made the drunken decision to keep celebrating and empty my bladder at the same time.I brought …

HEARTBREAK

My heart hurts. 💔 It’s an agonizing feeling that is so familiar, yet still so uncomfortable. It comes from loss of connection with another person- usually romantic, but also friendship, or loss through death. This feeling has followed me from youth. When I was 11 years old, my family moved from Texas to South Carolina, …